04.19.09

another update. so much has been going on lately.

minato-kun finally woke up. i got the news later than pretty much everyone else, but i was just happy he wasn't dead. why did he pass out for so long, anyway? i heard that all of his vital signs were totally healthy the entire time! and then he just pops out of bed like nothing happened!
but thank god he did. we were all worried. the seniors didn't seem too upset about it, but i'm sure they were... i mean, it would have been a life lost in their hands...

he got back to the dorm late last night, so i managed to say hi and ask him how he was doing before he went to bed. he kind of mumbled so i'm betting that meant 'not very good'. but he was alive, so that was a step.

mitsuru said she wanted everyone to come to the command room after school the next day. we had a meeting, and both of the transfer students were invited to it. ikutsuki -- that's the chairman, who's kind of like the adult supervisor of our group -- was going to ask them to formally join SEES like the rest of us had.
just, was asking him right after he woke up from a coma really a good idea?

about as good of an idea as writing this blog post right now. my hand really hurts.

obviously neither of them were exactly willing to join. after what happened, i didn't really blame them. but i knew that their power was important to SEES... if we were the only ones who could protect these people, it was our job, whether we liked it or not. i wasn't sure how to explain that feeling to them, but i told them that we were the only ones who could protect those people that fell victim to the shadows; those victims had people who loved and cared about them, brothers, sisters, parents, friends, but those people couldn't protect them. we had the power to protect them. and i told minato, if the tables were turned -- if shokora-chan, for instance, was going to be a victim of the shadows -- would you still refuse to do it?
because shokora is like every other person out there. every other girl who has a brother, parents, friends who love her.

i think it worked. he agreed to join SEES after that, and shokora did, too.
yukari didn't really agree with my method of negotiation. ...i just didn't know how else to convince them. i was telling the truth.

anyway, so, after that, we went to bed.
oh! well, technically i got some melon bread before i went back to my room. minato spotted me with it and asked me if he could have some, so i let him. he told me he really loved melon bread, too. ^_^ it sounds silly, but i was happy! i don't know, i mean, i was still tense after everything that happened, and no one in the dorm really talked to me... all the juniors were friends, and the seniors were friends, but i was kind of by myself... minato was the first one to approach me about something that wasn't about killing evil monsters.

even if it was for melon bread.
i mean, melon bread is pretty awesome. i'm glad minato-kun thinks so too.

today was a day off, because it's sunday. so i didn't do much. i actually got dressed and was about to leave for school when i realized that i didn't have to. '-'; i felt pretty dumb after that. i went downstairs to the lounge room to find something to do, but there wasn't much down there, either... i ended up reading a newspaper.
then akihiko-senpai tried talking to me. that was uncomfortable.

i-i mean, that wasn't his fault. i just didn't know what to say. akihiko-senpai is like, this cool upperclassman type of guy that everyone respects and all the girls fawn over at school. people like that didn't talk to me, and i was used to that. things were different because he kind of lives at my dorm, and he saved my life, but i still felt weird. in the end, i wound up making him breakfast because he was acting like he was in a lot of pain because of his ribs, and he really liked it! i was happy about that. i was terrified i'd screw it up or something.

i burned myself while i was cooking, though. i felt stupid for doing it, so now i've been wearing this oven mitt to cover it up all day. i know i should probably get it fixed, but... i don't know how? i can't wrap it in toilet paper. i don't have anything else to fix it with. ;n; well, no one's asked, so i'll just be weird and wear this oven mitt until i think of something.

akihiko-senpai said we're getting a new member today, though. i'm not sure whether to be happy about it or not. the dorm is filling up fast... but i still feel so lonely.